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	      <title><![CDATA[Damned If I Do Ya (Damned If I Don't)]]></title>
	      <link>http://asmileisworthamillion.buzznet.com/user/journal/7351531/damned-if-ya-damned-if/</link>
	      <description><![CDATA[<p><strong><span style="font-family: andale mono,times;"><span style="font-size: small;">QUICK NOTE: I have renamed the story just because its more fitting and you shall see why.</span></span></strong></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">Chapter one;</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">School was a drag. Everyday, same routine, nothing new, nothing special. The ONLY good thing was seeing all my crazy best friends. Jack, Zack, Rian, Alex, Kara, and Stephanie. We were all one big group that stuck together. I loved them all dearly, but they didn't know the truth about me. I didn't want to tell them, because I was afraid of how they would act around me when they did find out. They wouldn't understand. So I just kept them out of it. Don't get me wrong its not because I didn't trust them. Its just i was afraid this would ruin us. ALL of us.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">When lunch came around all of us sat together. Kara, Rian, Zack, and Stephanie on one side. Then Alex's girlfriend (whoever it was that week), Alex, Jack, and Me. We all had the craziest fun at lunch. Stephanie and I mainly talked to Jack, while he made us laugh all lunch. "want to hear DA BEST pick up line ever?" Jack shouted in my ear.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">"sure jackass."</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">"you're hot!"</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">"Jack, thats not a good pick up line," Stephanie said.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">Jack gasped, "thats because your a JERK, Candace is nice, she likes it."</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">Jack put his arm around me and I shook my head, "I agree with Stephanie."</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">Jack glared at me and put his hands across his chest, "you guys are both meanies!"</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">"whatever." Stephanie said.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">I bursted into laughter because it sounded like Stephanie was really upset that she was being called mean. Well, mean by Jack. Her secret crush since they meant. But, she would never do anything about. One day I would get them together. They were so cute anyways, especially when they argued with each other. "ALEXX! wheres your GIRLLLFRIEND!!?" Jack yelled.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">"we broke up," he said.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">We all rolled our eyes, so typical of him and his women. "whos your next victim?" I asked.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">We all chuckled. "you," he said glaring at me.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">"i'd like to see you try, and then watch you FAIL! OHHH!" I said shouting.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">No one joined me, so I just looked around waiting for them to join in. But, they weren't. "WHAT? you think i would fall for ALEX?"</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">"um, well...." Jack said.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">Alex smirked, "your going down Candy!"</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">"pshh. we'll see."</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">"want to bet?" Alex said looking at me.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">Stephanie kick me, I looked up at her and she was telling me not to make the bet with her eyes. Wow, my friends seriously doubted me. They thought Alex could win me over. I couldn't let myself fall for him, I had seen how his girls act around him. If I did fall for him, I wouldn't be able to keep this secret i've kept for almost one year and a half. I would win this bet. "I'm in!" I said starring everyone down at my table and stopping last at Alex.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">I winked, and left the table heading to my locker. I had to leave early today anyways. After I left and got back home from <em>there</em> I drove to band practice. I wasn't feeling my best, but I still went because they would all question me if I didn't show up, and I didn't have a boyfriend at the time so I was out of that excuse. I got to Jacks house on time and let myself in, "i'm here!"</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">"down here," someone called from the basement.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">I walked down the stairs, to see everyone sitting down on the couch. I sat on Jacks lap and smiled, "so what i miss?"</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">"nothing," Jack said putting his arms around my waist, "we were just about to start."</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">"cool, can you play hit the lights?"</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">"Ask alex."</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">I looked over at alex and he smiled, "can you play hit the lights?"</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">"sure... if you give me a kiss." Alex said smirking over at me.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">I shook my head, "nope."</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">"is that because you think you'd start to like me cause im such a good kisser."</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">"No, only because your JUST my friend."</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">"you kiss Jack."</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">"Only jokingly."</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">"isn't this JUST a joke?" he asked.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">"yeah.." I said confused.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">Alex leaned closer, "you want me to play hit the lights? you only have to kiss me."</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">Everyone was starring at me, waiting for my answer. Why did everyone think I was so weak? Did they all think I liked him? Did THEY know something i didn't. I mean I will admit, he's attractive and when we first met I thought he was insanely sweet, but then I really got to know him. I realised he just broke girls hearts, and thats not what I wanted. So I WAS NOT giving in, not matter what they thought I would not. I leaned closer to him making our lips centimeters apart. That little sucker froze right up, and when I looked into his eyes I smirked because I realised I had one this round. I whispered to him, "never."</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">I got up off Jacks lap and grabbed Jacks hand, "play play play!"</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">Jack smiled and started dancing with me and soon everyone was dancing, until Alex started grinding on me. Then I sat on the couch and Stephanie followed. Finally BAND PRACTICE started.</span></span></p>
<p><em><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">So don't you go I've got you where I want you<br />and I'm never letting go<br />hit the lights we'll be all right<br />tonight our dreams come true </span></span></em></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">I loved that song just because it made you feel so high when you felt it. Not high like smoking, just like your flying. Stephanie and I clapped cheering and the boys laughed as they moved onto the next song. After a few songs they had written they moved onto covers and after an hour or two band practice was over. Jack came over and picked me up from the couch and started sinning us. "JACKJELLYFISH PUT ME DOWN!!!" I pouted out my lip.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">Jack set me down and smiled his toothy smile and I slapped his huge forehead, "Jackoff."</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">Jack gasped speaking with a lisp, "meanthie youth all hath meth."</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">Stephanie giggled and I shook my head at her as I kissed Jacks forehead, "I'm sorry, I gotta go though."</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">Jack hugged my leg, "NOOO!"</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">I tried to move it, "jacky I got to go."</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">"fine I'll just hang with stephanie," Jack said getting up and going to the couch and they immediately started talking.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">I giggled at how cute they were and walked over to the other guys, "bye guys, I got to go."</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">"no, stay," Rian said hugging me.&nbsp;</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">I hugged him back, "i'll see you at school tomorrow."</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">"okay," he said letting go.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">Zack and I hugged and I stuck my tongue out at Alex making my way up the stairs and to my car. I saw the door open and Alex coming and maybe I wanted to talk to him but one look at the clock and I knew I had to go then. I quickly pulled out of the driveway and made my way to home where dad was leaving Alex watching my car speed out of sight.</span></span></p>
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<p>and there we have it, the first re-edited chapter. If you read it before I kept most of the first chapter just because I liked how it went and it felt like the right start. Thanks if you read, and please leave comments. I take critisism. BUZZ IT if ya like.</p>
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		  		  	<category>all time low</category>
		  		  	<category>jack barakat</category>
		  		  	<category>rian dawson</category>
		  		  	<category>zack merrick</category>
		  		  <category>Buzznet</category>
	      <dc:creator>asmileisworthamillion</dc:creator>
	      <dc:date>2010-08-09T14:24:00Z</dc:date>
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	      <title><![CDATA[It never felt right (REVISE)]]></title>
	      <link>http://asmileisworthamillion.buzznet.com/user/journal/7351331/never-felt-right-revise/</link>
	      <description><![CDATA[<p>soo, looking back at my story I hate it. writting sucked good plot and all just wrong timing, so i will be rewritting this. exspect updates soon! (: if you already read it, sorry. but it will be way different.</p>]]></description>
		  		  	<category>alex gaskarth</category>
		  		  	<category>all time low</category>
		  		  	<category>jack barakat</category>
		  		  	<category>rian dawson</category>
		  		  	<category>zack merrick</category>
		  		  <category>Buzznet</category>
	      <dc:creator>asmileisworthamillion</dc:creator>
	      <dc:date>2010-08-09T14:17:00Z</dc:date>
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	      <title><![CDATA[It Never Felt Right Calling This Just Friends; PREVIEW]]></title>
	      <link>http://asmileisworthamillion.buzznet.com/user/journal/4944031/never-felt-right-calling-just/</link>
	      <description><![CDATA[<p><img src="http://img.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/9/4/3/2/2/6/1/orig-9432261.jpg" border="0" alt="" /></p>
<p>This is all basically about alex, and where he got his music inspiration for some of his songs. The end of the book will mainly be in Alex's P.O.V. I will let you know, this is a sad story. Some things happen and ruins Alex's relationship with this girl.</p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<p><img src="http://img.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/9/4/3/2/3/9/1/orig-9432391.jpg" border="0" alt="" /></p>
<p>Name: Candace Latrell</p>
<p>Age: 16-19</p>
<p>Facts; she's bestfriends&nbsp;with Jack and has a werid relationship with Jack. She goes through a lot in this fan-fic. EXSPECT THE WORST AND A LOT OF DRAMA.</p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<p><img src="http://img.buzznet.com/assets/imgx/9/4/3/2/5/4/1/orig-9432541.jpg" border="0" alt="" /></p>
<p>Name: Alex Gaskarth</p>
<p>Age: 17-21</p>
<p>Facts; He's been a player most of his high school career, but when he finally really sees this on girl, he realises what he's been missing out on.</p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<p>Chapter one;</p>
<p>School was a drag. Everyday, same routine, nothing new, nothing special. The ONLY good thing was seeing all my crazy best friends. Jack, Zack, Rian, Alex, Kara, and Stephanie. We were all one big group that stuck together. I loved them all dearly, but they didn't know the truth about me. I didn't want to tell them, because I was afraid of how they would act around me when they did find out. They wouldn't understand. So I just kept them out of it. Don't get me wrong its not because I didn't trust them. Its just i was afraid this would ruin us. ALL of us.</p>
<p>When lunch came around all of us sat together. Kara, Rian, Zack, and Stephanie on one side. Then Alex's girlfriend (whoever it was that week), Alex, Jack, and Me. We all had the craziest fun at lunch. Stephanie and I mainly talked to Jack, while he made us laugh all lunch. "want to hear DA BEST pick up line ever?" Jack shouted in my ear.</p>
<p>"sure jackass."</p>
<p>"you're hot!"</p>
<p>"Jack, thats not a good pick up line," Stephanie said.</p>
<p>Jack gasped, "thats because your a JERK, Candace is nice, she likes it."</p>
<p>Jack put his arm around me and I shook my head, "I agree with Stephanie."</p>
<p>Jack glared at me and put his hands across his chest, "you guys are both meanies!"</p>
<p>"whatever." Stephanie said.</p>
<p>I bursted into laughter because it sounded like Stephanie was really upset that she was being called mean. Well, mean by Jack. Her secret crush since they meant. But, she would never do anything about. One day I would get them together.</p>
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<p>okay, so thats all i decided to post for the preview. First chapter will be up soon.</p>]]></description>
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		  		  	<category>jack barakat</category>
		  		  	<category>rian dawson</category>
		  		  	<category>zack merrick</category>
		  		  <category>Buzznet</category>
	      <dc:creator>asmileisworthamillion</dc:creator>
	      <dc:date>2009-10-29T16:35:00Z</dc:date>
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	      <title><![CDATA[Never Letting Go;]]></title>
	      <link>http://asmileisworthamillion.buzznet.com/user/journal/4827751/never-letting-go/</link>
	      <description><![CDATA[<p>So I have experiences exteme writters block. I know, how sad.... not reallly.</p>
<p>the story was just not well thought out and I blame myself entirely. Sorry for failing. But, I might start up a new story. I'm working on an outline for this one, and i'll start writting it down. Once I have 10 chapters down, i'll start posting thanks for the love, my crazy all time low friends!</p>
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<p>P.S; Jacks a cutie... too bad its illegal... *sigh*</p>]]></description>
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		  		  	<category>all time low</category>
		  		  	<category>jack barakat</category>
		  		  	<category>rian dawson</category>
		  		  	<category>zack merrick</category>
		  		  <category>Buzznet</category>
	      <dc:creator>asmileisworthamillion</dc:creator>
	      <dc:date>2009-10-21T19:26:00Z</dc:date>
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	      <title><![CDATA[Never Letting Go; Three]]></title>
	      <link>http://asmileisworthamillion.buzznet.com/user/journal/4710251/never-letting-three/</link>
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<p>Never Letting Go; Chapter Three</p>
<p>Gracie P.O.V</p>
<p>Jack and I just sat there starring at each other&nbsp;until one of the guys started to feel akward and spoke up at the table. "Hey Gracie," I looked up to see the boy from the hallway. At least I thought it was from our table.</p>
<p>"hi," I said turning my attention to him.</p>
<p>I felt Jacks glare, and heat rushed to my cheeks. I had no idea why. The boy leaned across the table toward me, "what class you go next?"</p>
<p>Jack answered for me, "she has gym."</p>
<p>I nodded smiling over at Jack hoping to calm him down so this didn't turn into a fight. After all, it was only my first day, and things were already moving fast. "so do i, i'll see you there." he winked at me and left the table.</p>
<p>"Jackass." Alex said.</p>
<p>I looked over at Alex, "who is that?"</p>
<p>"That," Alex said starring at him, "is Corey Jones."</p>
<p>"Sounds like a player." I said.</p>
<p>"he is." Jack said.</p>
<p>"plus hes always trying to&nbsp;be better than Jack at everything," Zack said.</p>
<p>"thats not hard to do," I joked trying to lighten the mood.</p>
<p>Jack glared at me. "Just kidding Jack," I said laughing a little.</p>
<p>The bell rang. I stood up, "come on you boys lets get going!"</p>
<p>They all got up and we walked to our next class, Jack was quiet until we were alone walking to gym at least I was determined that was going to happen. "whats the wrong," I asked concerned.</p>
<p>"nothing," he said looking away.</p>
<p>I stopped him with my arm and put my hand on his cheek forcing him to down at me, "i don't believe you."</p>
<p>Jack starred into my eyes.</p>
<p><strong>Jack P.O.V</strong></p>
<p>"nothing," I said avoiding eye contact.</p>
<p>I was so upset over Corey talking to her and already trying to take her away. Gracie stopped me and put her hand on my cheek. My instant reaction was to look into her eyes. "i don't believe you," she said.</p>
<p>I felt my self leaning closer to her, i'm not even sure if I was doing this kissing a girl I just met today.&nbsp;But I leaned in and kissed her more passionate than I ever had with any other girl, and as unreal as this sounds, she was kissing me back. Until I felt a tear drop land on my cheek. Oh, God she was crying. I pulled back, WHAT HAD I DONE? I've ruined it now, shes going to never talk to me again. "I can't do this," she whispered.</p>
<p>She wiped her tears, and I wished nothing more than to wipe them away. But she was already walking away. JACK, your a dumbass.</p>
<p><strong>Gracie P.O.V</strong></p>
<p>Jack leaned in and kiss me, and I couldn't resist kissing him back. I think our chemistry was just colliding and we couldn't help it. We were full out making out when I really started thinking about my last boyfriend and what he did to me. I couldn't hold the tears backs and they kept falling. Jack stopped kissing me, and I pulled my face back. "I can't do this," I whispered wiping the tears.</p>
<p>I walked into the girls locker room quickly, leaving Jack behind. Feeling terrible what I had just done. I went to the bathroom first and cried myself out. Girls were starting to go into the gym, so I went to find the teacher. It was a guy, a very perverted one at that. He told me I wouldn't have to start till tomorrow. I was glad about that, because I was certainly not ready to be physical today. I saw Jack not dressed in gym clothes, go figure this bad boy would take a no dress. I walked over to him, wanting to tell him that it wasn't him. I sat down next to him. "i'm sorry." we both said at the same time.</p>
<p>I smiled a little, "its not your fault."</p>
<p>"yeah," he said not believing it.</p>
<p>"its my first day here Jack, and i'm not ready for another relationship. Especially since my last relationship..." I gulped, "was heart shattering."</p>
<p>"do you like me?" Jack said nevously.</p>
<p>"yeah, i do, I just," I felt the tears coming on again and almost choked out the rest, "i can't do this now."</p>
<p>I made sure to emphasize the now part. Because I did like him, and I was possibly thinking of dating him, in the future though. Jack nodded, "okay."</p>
<p>I put on a fake smile, "thanks jack."</p>
<p>I put one arm around him and squeezed and he did the same. The rest of class Jack told me a bunch of jokes that had me laughing on the floor, and all about his friends. AND his band. I had to admit that was a turn on that he was in a band. Hopefully they were decent.&nbsp;Corey didn't say hi to me at all, which I think made Jack a little bit more happy. When the bell rang Jack and I walked together to my locker. "don't you have to get your stuff?" I asked.</p>
<p>"yesh, I should go," he said, "but before I do give me your phone."</p>
<p>I took my phone out of my bag and we switched phones. I entered my name <strong>Gracie</strong> and put in my phone number. Jack took a little longer than me and we switched. "bye," he said.</p>
<p>I gave him a quick hug, having to get on my tippy toes to reach and he hugged back.</p>
<p>I shoved a bunch of stuff in my bag and put my earphones and walked threw the hallways and out the door. It was still chilly, damn maryland weather. I sighed and clutched my bag tighter to me for warmth. I walked quicker to my house than I had before. When I got home I went straight to the shower to take a nice hot shower. After that i did some of my homework, too bored to finish it all. Dad came home early, and the bitch from hell hadn't got home yet, so my dad wouldn't ignore me. I ran down stairs my hair still wet. "hey dad!" I said.</p>
<p>"hey honey, have a good day," he said looking threw the one envolope we got today.</p>
<p>"yeah, it was okay, I made some friends." I said.</p>
<p>"thats good, they're free to come over anytime they want." dad said.</p>
<p>Dad always let me have friends over. whenever. But, i believed he had alternatives to it. I think he just wanted me to be busy with them, so he wouldn't have to be a real dad. It made me sad that he did this, but i understand how much I reminded him of mom. So I never said anything. After talking for a few more minutes the conversation died. I went to my room and decided to text Jack. I went to find his number. <strong>Jackaroo. </strong>Ha, he made up his own nickname. Little fucker took away my job.</p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><strong>to; Jackaroo</strong></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><em>meanie. :P you took my nickname job away.</em></p>
<p style="text-align: left;">A few minutes later I got one back.</p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><strong>to; Gracie</strong></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><em>you can pick you nickname</em></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><strong>to; Jackaroo</strong></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><em>thats no fun!</em></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><strong>to; Gracie</strong></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><em>who said I was fun?</em></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><strong>to; Jackaroo</strong></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><em>you boring little boy! </em></p>
<p style="text-align: left;">"Dinner," I heard my step-mother call.</p>
<p style="text-align: left;">"skipping," I yelled down to her.</p>
<p style="text-align: left;">I was tired from this long day. It felt like I was at school for years. Of course, first days were always that way. Oh, well tomorrow would be fun. My phone buzzed.</p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><strong>to; Gracie</strong></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><em>you know you like it that way (;</em></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><strong>to; Jackaroo</strong></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><em>sure i do, I'm going to bed. night, jackass.</em></p>
<p style="text-align: left;">I laughed silently at my nickname for him, and turned my phone off. I changed into pajama's and turned off the light. I found my way through the darkness to my covers and snuggled into them. When I woke I was sweating all over and felt something cold touch me. I screamed. I looked around franticly and saw nothing. <em>It nothing, </em>I told myself. I put my head back on the pillow and went back to sleep, dreamless. Scared to death of the dream returning to me.</p>
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<p>&nbsp;so, thats chapter 3.&nbsp;&nbsp;I was going to post yesterday, but I got a little aggitated with this chapter. So I waited. I hope this isn't completing boring. I can promise a good chapter 4 so look for it. It going to be killer amazing.</p>
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		  		  	<category>alex gaskarth</category>
		  		  	<category>all time low</category>
		  		  	<category>jack barakat</category>
		  		  	<category>rian dawson</category>
		  		  	<category>zack merrick</category>
		  		  <category>Buzznet</category>
	      <dc:creator>asmileisworthamillion</dc:creator>
	      <dc:date>2009-10-15T14:25:00Z</dc:date>
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	      <title><![CDATA[Never Letting Go; Two]]></title>
	      <link>http://asmileisworthamillion.buzznet.com/user/journal/4699111/never-letting-two/</link>
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<p><span style="font-size: small; font-family: georgia,palatino;"><span style="font-size: medium;">Chapter Two</span></span>
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<p><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">Jack and I walked out the door following me&nbsp;close behind with my book bag on my shoulder. He took me to my&nbsp;next class smiling as we waited by the door akwardly, "this is geometry."</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">I faked excitement, "yay, numbers and shapes."</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">He laughed, "thats right missy now get in there and kick some ass."</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">I nodded my head and soluted him, glad we were getting a long, and walked in the classroom smiling like an idiot. I got my schedule signed and took a seat in the back of the room. My mind was taking me to so many places threw the whole class. My feelings were so bubbly, and it was all Jack. Jack...&nbsp; oh yes Barakat. That's what the secretary said. Strange but unique name, it fit him. That tall'n skinny boy had me going crazy. Yet, I could feel something inside that was screaming "STOP! DON'T DO THIS AGAIN!"</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">I knew I should listen, but for some reason I felt as if maybe Jack could stitch my little heart back together. Take me for the shredds I already was. Hopefully he would. The bell finally rang and I went to my locker this time, hoping Jack would be there since we hadn't decided a place to meet back up. I opened the locker, remembering the combination, and threw my other stuff in there and picked up my geograpgy and physics. Since those two were next. Jack was at my locker by the two minute bell. "hey, sorry I was went to your geometry room," he said breathless.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">"Jack, breathe." I said looking him in the eyes.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">He took a big exaggerated breathe, "okay, where's your schedule?"</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">I handed it to him, touching his hand the smallest bit. "geography with Mcpherson, with alexxx," jack said in a scary voice.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">"dun, dun, dun." I said giggling.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">We started walking to the class, "here let me hold those for you," Jack said taking my books right out of my arms.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">Jack wasn't very cordnated though, so it fell out of my arms and he accidently scooped my boobs. My face flushed bright red, the heat could have provided enough for the whole school. Jack went quick to grab the books, but another set of hands started helping. It was a boy with long black hair, and angelic skin. For a second my heart almost shattered, but I realised it wasn't him. The boy picked up my binder and looked at it, "New Found Glory?" </span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">I nodded and we both said in unison, "they're amazing."</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">We both laughed and I glanced over at Jack, he looked a little irrated. "um, Gracie we are going to be late," Jack said.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">"Oh, okay, catch you around?" I said to the boy who was glaring at jack.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">"yeah," he nodded tersly and walked off to his class.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">Jack and I made our way to geography, in silence, "hey, if your late blame me," I said as I went in the classroom.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">Geography went by quick. Alex had waved to me when he walked in, but went over to sit next to another girl. Next was Physics, which as well went by quick.&nbsp;I waited for Jack this time and he didn't speak much to me. Lunch was next, I couldn't wait because lunch was such a free period. Jack seemed happier when he met up with me at Physics. "FOOD TIME!" he said with the most cutest expression.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">"lets go get some grub." I said rubbing my stomach.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">"food for the lady," he said as he linked arms with me and we walked to lunch. His other friends I saw him with in music joined us at the table. "Guys, this is Gracie," Jack said nodded to me, "Gracie this is Rian," he pointed to the guy across from us in a black shirt and buzzcut hair, "Zack," he pointed to a boy with brown hair that looked straightened, "and you already met Alex."</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">"hey," I smiled at them.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">"hey." they all said in unison.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">They all got engaged in some conversation about a band. "oh, what band?" I said intriqued.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">"our band, All time low." Alex said.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">"yeah, and we've got some skill," Jack said as they all high-fived each other.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">"awe, you guys are gonna be my little rock stars!" I said dramaticly.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">"don't miss us too much," Jack said winking at me.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">My heart fluttered as he did this. But, then I realised something. If these guys really did become famous, how would I feel? Would I want to share Jack with the whole world and a bunch of obsessive girls? Would things be the same? At least, I hope they would be. I was really beginning to like these guys, especially Jack. "have you guys wrote any songs yet?" I asked curious.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">"right now we're just doing covers." Rian said.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">"oh, what bands?" I asked</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">"Just Blink-182." Jack said.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">I almost screamed, "They are FUCKING amazing."</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">Jack just starred at me with incredious eyes. "they are," Alex said elbowing Jack.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">"yeah," Jack said in a trance.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><strong>Jacks P.O.V</strong></span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">"have you guys wrote any song yet?" Gracie asked looking toward me.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">I don't know what it was about this girl that had me turned on so much. I've always been a funny guy, but around her I feel like I can be serious too. Its incredable. "right now we're just doing covers." Rian said.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">"Oh, what bands?" Gracie asked fully turned toward me now.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">"Just Blink-182," I said locked in her eyes.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">The girls eyes lit up bright green. They almost looked like they were glowing, but in a beautifying way. "They are FUCKING amazing." she said.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">I just starred at her, Am I Dreaming? Or is this girl just too perfect? Its like she was made for me. I have a feeling me and this Gracie Koeppler were going to be getting really close, especially if I had anything to do with it. I felt someone elbow me and I looked up to see alex hinting with eyes to look at Gracie. I looked at her, still thinking about how me and her had so much in common, "yeah." I almost said to intensely.</span></span></p>
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<p><span style="font-family: terminal,monaco;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">i did my first switch in point of view!! excitedness happening here&nbsp;(:&nbsp;</span></span>
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<p><span style="font-family: terminal,monaco;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">so I feel like this first day is going to be a long 3 chapters.&nbsp; But there's so much I need to explain about her whole fall in love with jack story. So the first day, is vital. Sorry to drag this on. I might post Chapter 3 tomorrow and end the first day. WOO-HOO!</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: terminal,monaco;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><span style="font-family: terminal,monaco;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">don't forget to comment kiddo's. Don't be afraid to tell me I suck either, I want this fan-fic to at least be enjoyable for all of you. GOT IDEAS; TELL ME!</span></span></span></span></p>
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<p><span style="font-family: terminal,monaco;"><span style="font-family: terminal,monaco;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">PPS:</span></span> <span style="font-size: large;">Big thanks to kaiodle&nbsp;for the banner! (: I LOVE YOOH!</span></span></p>
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		  		  	<category>alex gaskarth</category>
		  		  	<category>all time low</category>
		  		  	<category>jack barakat</category>
		  		  	<category>rian dawson</category>
		  		  	<category>zack merrick</category>
		  		  <category>Buzznet</category>
	      <dc:creator>asmileisworthamillion</dc:creator>
	      <dc:date>2009-10-14T14:51:00Z</dc:date>
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	      <title><![CDATA[Never Letting Go; Chapter One]]></title>
	      <link>http://asmileisworthamillion.buzznet.com/user/journal/4693911/never-letting-chapter-one/</link>
	      <description><![CDATA[<p>so i've decided to post now; I figured who cares about a banner (it WOULD be NICE if SOMEONE WOULD MAKE ME ONE)</p>
<p>maybe, i'll even make my own... who knows. anyways...</p>
<p>&nbsp;i'm so excited this is my first fan-fic. I've been waiting to post so here is goes</p>
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<p><span style="font-size: large; font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">Chapter One</span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;"><span style="font-size: medium;">There is always that one boy you can never forget. The first one you love, but will never admit it. He broke your heart, you cried and got over him a few weeks later. Unless your me, Gracie Koeppler. </span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">He wasn't you preppy polo shirt average guy. No, he was way more than that. He was uniquie, he was funny, and random at so many molments, he was Jack Barakat. The boy who made me fall in Love.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">"Gracie! Your going to be late for school!" My step-mother called to me.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">We had just moved to the small state of maryland. My bitch of a step-mother got a job here and my dad does anything she wants, so I ended up here, in Maryland. Thousands of miles away from my home state, Michican. Of course, I love my dad, but ever since mom left us when I turned 8 he's been, well not the father I loved as a kid. I didn't blame him, I blame my step-mother.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">I had my hair straight, my tightest skinny jeans on, and a blue plaid shirt on. I added a baby blue beanie that went with my outfit and my black hair. My make-up was light, foundation, mascara, and lipgloss.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">I ran down the stairs slipped into my nikes and grabbed my school bag. "Bye." I said quietly as I slammed the door.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">My new house was a two minute walk from my new high school. The school had mailed us my schedule weeks before. I just had to check in with my tour guide. Which, personally, I thought was stupid since I'm a Junior, but according to them I needed one. I will never move my kids in the middle of the year.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">I kept my head down. My I-pod volume was to the max, and my bag on my shoulder. The wind here made it freezing. I would remember to bring a sweatshirt tomorrow. I got to the high school and in the front of the lawn were tons of kids, all different social types, people sucking each other faces, and of course the big school sign BAYLEY HIGH SCHOOL. Hard to miss, I thought. I walked in the office and waited for the secratery to finish her phone call. When she finished she looked up at me, "Yes?"</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">"I'm Gracie Koeppler, I'm new here," I said but she didn't respond so I want on, "I'm supposed to meet a tour guide."</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">"Oh yes, Mr. Barakat, go ahead and sit down, he'll be out soon." she said and began typing again.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">I sat in the uncomfortable plastic chair and closed my eyes listening to Silverstein. Their always gave me enough convidence to do anything. "Gracie," a deep confused-tone voice asked.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">I turned off my I-pod and shoved it in my bag and stood up. I expected to see some geek with glasses. the over helpful one. But instead I saw chocolate brown eyes, and long hair. Though he was kind of boney and looked disorganized. His eyes though, they were already melting into me. He had to be clearly taken, or maybe a player. With my teack record, I should stay clear from him. Far across the country. "I'm Gracie," I said.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">"follow," was all he said.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">A bad boy too, staying far away. I did as he said. He seemed to want to get out of this quickly. "you don't have to show me around, I'm a big girl." I said looking at my schedule as I turned in a direction I thought my locker might be, I spun in a circle, maybe.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">He caught up fast though. Must have been those long legs. "I have to do this, Its kind of a punishment."</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">"Right."</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">I handed him my schedule and he took it as we walked, "we have music, gym, and lunch together." he said after a while.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">Great just fucking fantastic. I just nodded in reasponse. He stopped at a locker and started spinning the lock. "this is your locker," he said.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">"oh, really?" I raised an eyebrow.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">"yes, miss. smartiepants."</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">I stuck my tongue out him. "okay well your first class is English III is right there," he said as he pointed to the classroom across diagonally from my locker. I put my bag in the locker, "well, thanks..." I said.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">"I'll meet you at your locker after 1st. And its Jack by the way," Jack said.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">"Okay... Jack."&nbsp; I said trying to ignore the thrill of saying his name my heart was making.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">"Bye big girl." he said as he walked away.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">Was he flirting? With me? No, he's just picking on me. I can't get involved with another bad boy. I'm done with them. I grabbed my pen from my bag, and stuffed my I-pod in my jeans. The first bell rang, oh joy, the end of my life is just beginning.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">I took out a binder I used from my old school for English and wlaked in my English class, schedule in hand. I walked to the teachers desk. It was a very small lady with glasses. She turned to me when I got to her desk. "I'm new here, and I need my schedule signed," I said quietly trying to ignore the curious eyes and ears behind me.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">"Yes, Gracie Koeppler, Welcome to English." she took my schedule and signed it, "take a seat anywhere."</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">I took my schedule and sat down in the back. I zoned out for the most part. I had learned most of this crap at my old school so this class would be a breeze. When the bell rang I walked slowly to the door. When I got out Jack was there, looking my handsome then ever. "We have music together now," he smiled.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">Oh, that smile just did a thousand things inside me. We walked together to music silently, until a boy who looked similar to Jack stepped in between us. "hey jack, this your new girlfriend," he teased.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">I felt the heat rushing to my cheeks and I pressed my books closer to my chest. "No, I'm her tour guide."</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">"Fresh meat," the boy said as he winked at me.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">I blushed even deeper, "I'm Gracie."</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">"Alex Gaskarth, at your service."</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">I giggled as we walked through the door. Music was the career path choosen for me. I loved every second of it. Alex and Jack said bye as they walked over to two other boys. I sat in the front this time. The girl next to me turned toward me, "hey, are you new here?"</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">I looked over at her and smiled, hoping to make a new friend. "Yeah, I'm Gracie," I said.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">"I love your beanie!"</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">I giggled, "thanks."</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">I looked down and noticed her skinny jeans. They were all different colors. "wow, your skinnys look AH-MAZING."</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">She laughed, "I ordered them offline at some cheap store."</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">"sweet."</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">I glanced over at Jack and his friends. Even though I knew how bad it would turn out if I started liking him, I couldn't stop myself. The girl next to me noticed, "Alex Gaskarth," she sighed, "he's a real badass."</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">She thought I was interested in Alex, how sweet. She must have a thing for him. "yeah, he sure looks like one."</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">I looked over at them, they were laughing at something and Jack was blushing. He was kind of cute that way.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">"Today," I heard a loud booming voice at the front of the room it was the music ap teacher, "we have a new student, Graccie, would you like to introduce yourself please?"</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">I nodded, feeling my cheeks turn pink, and stood up, "hi, I'm Gracie and I just moved here from Michican."</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">"wow thats far," the teacher said as I just nodded, "well we need to test your voice is it okay if we do it in front of everyone."</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">Everyone turned their attention to me, but I wasn't nevous, singing was just a talent I had, "yeah its fine."</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">I walked over to baldy who was sitting on the piano, "sing this," he said as he gave me a sheet of music.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">It was called "where I stood" by Missy Higgins. I knew this piece already which was great because I wasn't all that well at sight reading. He started playing and I sung along, "I don't know what I've done, or if I like what i've begun, but something told me to run..."</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">When I finished all eyes where on me. I caught Jacks eye and he was looking intensely at me. I felt like he was saying everything with his eyes, but at the same time saying nothing at all. Oh, so how confusing boys were these days.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">I took my seat and soon after that the bell rang and Jack came over, "wow, that song was great."</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">"thanks," I said not able to contain the smile on my face.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">"you should sing in my band with me, sometime."</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">"sure, sometime." I smiled using it the same way he had.</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">He just stared into my eyes, and I felt as if something big was going to happen. But, I couldn't let that happen. My heart hurt too much from the last time. "so... next class."</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">"right, this way." he said releasing my gaze and shifting back to his normal self. This was the beginning of a very long day.</span></span></p>
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<p><span style="font-family: georgia,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">Okay, so I know its long and its just a start. But, hopefully you enjoyed it. i would have posted earlier but I went to get highlights, so here it is. tell me what you think, IDEA's?</span></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: georgia,palatino;"><span style="font-size: small;">i'd appriciate it.</span></span></p>
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		  		  	<category>all time low</category>
		  		  	<category>jack barakat</category>
		  		  	<category>rian dawson</category>
		  		  	<category>zack merrick</category>
		  		  <category>Buzznet</category>
	      <dc:creator>asmileisworthamillion</dc:creator>
	      <dc:date>2009-10-13T16:06:00Z</dc:date>
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	      <title><![CDATA[Never Letting Go]]></title>
	      <link>http://asmileisworthamillion.buzznet.com/user/journal/4692371/never-letting-go/</link>
	      <description><![CDATA[<p>new FAN-FIC.</p>
<p>I'm going to start posting soon, as in this week soon. SUPER EXCITED! (:</p>
<p>so, if yall love me, which you should, please make me BANNER.</p>
<p>specifically a Jack one, since it will be revolving around him.</p>
<p>here's a preview of "Never Letting Go." hopefully you'll get a tiny bit hooked&nbsp;:</p>
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</span></span></span><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms,geneva;"><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">There is always that one boy you can never forget. The first one you love, but will never admit it. He broke your heart, you cried and got over him a few weeks later. Unless your me, Gracie Koeppler.</span></span></span></p>
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<p><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms,geneva;"><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: book antiqua,palatino;">He wasn't you preppy polo shirt average guy. No, he was way more than that. He was uniquie, he was funny, and random at so many molments, he was Jack Barakat. The boy who made me fall in Love.</span></span></span></p>
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		  		  	<category>all time low</category>
		  		  	<category>jack barakat</category>
		  		  	<category>rian dawson</category>
		  		  	<category>zack merrick</category>
		  		  <category>Buzznet</category>
	      <dc:creator>asmileisworthamillion</dc:creator>
	      <dc:date>2009-10-13T15:44:00Z</dc:date>
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